理事会27届周年庆=国大新春晚宴？虾米？？

理事会要新春为理事会搞27庆功宴。你说25，30，我且能接受。但你说27届！而且“它” 给新春的理由为新春一向以来都有为理事会搞周年庆，除了15届新春！歪曲的事实只能骗得了学妹，而，不是我…
你们说，5小组的高层皆有被中央面试及于常务会议通过，此事，我都忍你了。我觉得，既然这是传统，好，我让我学弟妹和你会面并于常务会议让大家通过。所以，当时你当我面说这，我静静。当时，你还指说“晓彤是小组的人，他也知道”， 我也静静。

对我而言，事实是如此，便是如此。你用歪曲了的历史来“劝”我的人，此作为，我无法苟同。这样做， 也让我觉得，你们是要定我学妹照做。

我不知学长对今届理事会中央说了些什么。但总觉得某学长，还在为14届新春与25届理事会的恩怨耿耿于怀。为何今届理事会还要促使历史重演？我不要， 我不想…… 我的原则很简单：互相尊重。还有一届还一届，上届恩怨上届了…

但，希望理事会别太过分。如让学弟妹察觉这些事，和那歪曲的事实，恐怕他们不再听我劝告，到时，我已无力为理事会守住新春了。
于新春晚宴上的27届周年庆， 我坦诚，我真的有点不满。尤其是拿歪曲的事实为理由，而无其他理由…卫免有点扯吧……

趁现在新春还有正确想法，希望理事会中央也有正确的想法。
亲爱的理事会中央们，请你们去确认下新春的“高层”指的是那几位。
亲爱的理事会中央们，理事会是让5小组和旗下2活动独立行事的。如你们是要控制，那你们去跑MO为大家凑钱吧！
亲爱的理事会中央们，要被尊重，就先请学会尊重…

大家，加油吧！我不想理事会和新春在未来有什么过不去的。我不想新春的高层还要为这些“有点政治”的事烦……大家都只为UKM 华人嘛。

ps：我坦诚的说了我的想法。原以为他很开明的，那知他原来很敏感。很小很小的问题，他会乱想。因为当是朋友，我才会对他坦诚。可我觉得， 他不谅解我，认为说我误解了他。先生啊，我只是说我个人意见罢了，而且，又不是对你啦。 是你有份参与的组织。如不对，那是我的直觉错了咯，或是我太敏感了。
我曾是小组副组长（理事会半个高层）+ 新春主席，我不会让新春乱来。但前提为，理事会也不对新春乱来…

最近比较烦…

Recently, my confidence level dropping. Have not get 2 go 4 any job interview 4 quite sometimes+ a few pimples pop out last week (nw no more pop put), wit increasing weight. huhu.. Was thking if tht was related 2 my profile sent ? My photo no gud ? My weight too heavy ? or ????
So, i gonna keep fit.. When exam finish, go 4 studio photo again. I thk it is da time 2 update my photo le.. hahaha.

Was rushing assgnments recently.. Few assgnments, to b due date each week.. ARGH.. Luckily tht i hv let go da activities. thou, recently i start 2 b"heart itchy" again, afta i saw Aisecs finding OC 4 National Conference.. Assignments make me exhausted.. Arghhhhhhhhhh.. Yet, i learn sth frm my assgnment d, n enjoy da process of doin group assgnment wit coursemates..

Mid-Sem result for 1 of da major subjek has out. N i was a lil bit disappointed wit it. I did work hard 4 it, in d end, i gt onli a lil bit more den half, of da full mark 4 d paper. n my frens hu dun rmbr da formula well tht tm, score much higher mark den me.. I was a lil bit dwn when i c my result 4 tht paper.. I nid2 work hard 4 final.. Ohh, STRESS!!!

My mood isnt gud recently, i thk tht was partly bcz of all the reasons above. N i easily get angry wit Edison (as ppl noe, i gt high EQ).. Sorry to him..

A story of a blur blur gal

I gonna told you a story of a blur blur girl.
But before u proceed to read on it, promise me not to laugh at her.. Even if u wan2 laugh at her, do it secretly bah.. hahaha
I named the girl as Cat bah..

One afternoon, Cat and her bf went sumwhere to eat.. Afta parking, she walked to the seats happily, swinging her hp pouch which she puts her money.. She walked, walked, walked, and then realize that coins were dropping out. So she took up the coins and put them back in2 her pouch.
Then, she ordered her food. She brought it to her table, and eat. Den her coursemate(brian) called her, bt she failed2 receive that call. She leaved it aside, waiting the coursemate to call again, wondering why he calling her. Then, she got a SMS. That sms asked her wheter she lost her IC.
Accidently, she deleted that message before she reply nor record that no..
Oh oH.................... CHAM!!!

So, she walked out. The uncle selling drinks gave her bek her driving licence. She continued2 walk out. She found that her thgs in d pouch all dropped (hp was in her pocket).. Her namecard, ppl's namecard etc.. but, her IC wasnt thr..
She worried.. She regret.. She was so helpless..........
Finally, she has the worst decision.. OK, if the guy never contacts her again, she would lodge a police report, and make a new IC..

Then she continues on her planning 4 that noon - to transfer her BankIslam money to MayBank.. She too plan2 change her Maybank Card to Maybank Debit Visa. She asked the receptionist wheter MyKad is needed for the card changing process, and the reply was "NO".. So, with bit of relieve, she filled in the form and sit down and wait, while thinking, " oh, changing type of cards nonid MyKad d o".. .. Then it comes her turn, but she was rejected by the bank officer, because of dont have the MyKad..

She went back her hostel moodily.. Reli reli reli no no no mood. She searches on software, trying2 get bek the previous sms tht she deleted. Bt she failed on trying the softwares. Bit sadly, she went2 her bed, and have a small nap..

When she wakes up, she saw her another coursemate (which is hsemate of brian) saying hello to her in msn. She greet him bek, and asked wheter brian thr ont..
Then she gt a happy news, her coursemate on msn said " ur IC wit brian ah".. Wahaha, she happy ler.. He told her that it was being found by a facmate of her, KhengHow hu taking Actuary.. KH passed it 2 Brian.................................................................

Oh, Cat is such a blur blur gal.. vry 粗心 ah............. hehehe

My Future Activities Life ~~U never noes what's gonna be next,

A junior of PAP told me that he wishes to join CCC. I was wondering, what so good bout joining it ? He told me that he is interested to watch the politics inside. Yea junior, u noe, joining CCC is jz a politic-playing. But, my dear, joining of anything, any comittee or seketeriat , means u hv2 sacrificed sth. Ur friendship wit coursemates, or ur studies, or ur private time.. That is my experience..
Frankly, i am quite enjoying days nowadays of not belonging2 any society or seketeriat etc, juz lik back2 1st year sem 1, yet, i noe far in my heart still gt bit bit, a lil lil bit bit of thking bek2 activities life..
I dunno, i dunno, i dunno....... ...... ......

I never thought of joining any activities when i 1st came in2 ukm, n i even missed PestaTanglung ( partly bcx tht m is of 2nd intake).. But as wat Palapes said, it ends up 2 hear XiaoTong's name in PAP, CreativeLane, YinWeiYouAi, FIC , with all so call offering me a "not-too-low" post.. TKP/secretary in PAP, Assistant Leader in CL(according seniors, i shud b d leader, bt they scared i coudnt do well due2 PAP) , Secretary in YWYA (bt, sorry, XiaoTong dun lik2 do secretary job..), TKP in FIC..
If i never let go FIC, bt instead of letting go CL, will i be in GMUKM nw? Hrm.. hahaha..
Or if i still b in YWYA, will i b working part time 4 陈礼祥 nw ? (ah ha, bt i dun lik him.. He too "jia", "Jia Dao..........." Issshhhhhhhh..)
Ah... u never noes wat is gonna happen..
Words from BubbaGump " Mama always said Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you're gonna get" .. Yea, true.. U never noe what you're gonna get.. Juz go ahead, confidently.. Go for what u think is the best to you..

But sometimes, i do thk that i am not that capable actually. I was thinking that, mayb juz tht ppl was get cheated by my outlook tht i am capable, bt i noe i still hv a lot more to be improved. Hahaha.. Tht's nothing bad to admit ur weaknesses sometimes~~~

WengWai sms me jz nw, to ask me out 2nite. He said he got sth 2 talk 2 me, regarding 中央改选.. May it be he wan PAP/CL to vote him n his ppl; May it b he want me to joinCCC. For voting part, i will jz vote for ppl i thk worth my vote, even mayb my vote will b 作废.. I admit, am stuborn, vry stuborn.. haha..

Anyway, I am easily be biased and be stuborn.. I nid time to digest ppl opinion, cz i found out tht i am easily being persuaded, if he gt his point.. tht's y sumtime i dun gv opinion or decision immediately.. i dun wan to be bias.. I was wrong once in PAP 15, for being bias. I never wan2 repeat that fault again. Too bad to the "victim"..
Being an internal TKP, i shud always keep myself neutral, neither on either sides, bt i shud alwiz think from the point of view of my exco. Tht's my job 2 take gud care of them and to solve internal problems. KW wont noe some of the problems, neither i want2 tell him, due2 his personality. I dun wish 2 c him dislike the exco more, frankly, they're right n he was wrong sumtimes. Anyway, things has passed, n prob was settled. So, tht wasnt prob anymore, rite.. HeHe..

I was expeting Internal Vice president of CCC to do the same thing. But i was bit of disappointed. He is the one that shud stands up, when internal got problem.. He can voice up and against the President and all the TopExco of CCC, for the sake and peace of internal.. Bt,sadly, i din c him doin so.. .. .........

Perhaps u might c me sitting down at the AudiSiswa seats on 22Feb nite, borringly sms my 战友 telling them tht dis is a dirty game, n tht “它，完蛋了”…
Perhaps u might c me on AudiSiswa's stage on 22Feb nite, saying my manifesto loudly; and later, proudly thanks ppl for voting me..

~~U never noes what's gonna be next.. ~~

Catherine's Working Experiences (Last updated, Jan09)

• U-mobile Roadshow (Time Square Kiosk), Jan09
• Digi Promoter -Digi Show in Klang, Sept 2008
• VIP usher -INDEE Fair, Sept 2008
• Vista Vision Specialist Roadshow, August 2008
• Sony Ericsson Traffic Jam Party, July 2008
• ARCHIDEX Fair, KLCC , July 2008
• Extras -Bank Islam TVC, May 2008
• Sampling promoter -REAL Energy Bar in Jusco Breakfast Fair, May 2008
• Cosplay girl -MoXiang online game 1st Anniversary, Apr2008
• Model -ShutterAsia Model Shoot (Theme: Bridal), Jan2008
• Maxis postpaid promoter -MyTeam2 Event, Oct2007
• Roadshow Girl -Hotlink@ SinChew Carnival in Bahau(Negeri Sembilan), Bentong(Pahang) and Port Dickson(Negeri Sembilan), Jun-July 2007
• Roving Team Girl -Hotlink@ SinChew Carnival in Bahau(Negeri Sembilan), Bentong(Pahang) and Port Dickson(Negeri Sembilan), Jun-July 2007
• MapleSEA 2nd Anniversary Carnival@ Cineleisure, June 2007
• Extras for local and China Drama series, June 2007
• Hewlett-Packard(Hp)+Streamyx roadshow promoter, June 2007
• Hewlett-Packard(Hp) PC promoter, June 2007
• Roadshow Girl, for Hotlink/Maxis@ SinChew Charity Carnival with in Melaka, May 2007
• Roadshow Girl, for Maxis@ Astro Super 50 Concert in Johor Bahru, May 2007
• Roving Team Girl, for Hotlink in Johor Bahru, May 2007
• Extras for TVC, “Soy Joy”, May 2007
• Usherer, for Musical Drama in KLCC , May 2007
• Hewlett-Packard(Hp) Roadshow @ HSBC Smart Privileges Fair, May 2007
• CARs International Roadshow in Times Square, April 2007
• Promoter , for Sony Ericsson P990i PDA phone, April 2007
• Pikom PC Fair KL (LG), April 2007
• JobsDB Career Fair(M-Business Resourcing Sdn Bhd), March 2007
• MIFF(Malaysia International Furniture Fair) 07 , March 2007

• Part time waitress for Hilton KL, Jan 2007-April 2007
• Part time tuition teacher, May 2006-Oct 2006
• Sales assistant in King’s Confectionary Sdn Bhd, Dec2004-Dec 2005

男女间是否能有纯友谊的存在呢？

上个拜五，在那个塞车回家的路程中，和学长偶然间的一封短讯，而造就了几天来的不少封的短讯。字眼中带暧昧，可谁都知，那多少都只是玩笑…
昨天晚上，我告诉学长，他不小心看到一些短讯了。学长突然的严肃起来，且又说不必回他的短讯了。老实说，有点失望的。难道，做朋友都不行麽？难道，朋友不能互通短讯吗？难道，有男朋友的女生就不能有男性朋友的吗？

男女间是否能有纯友谊的存在呢？

我个人认为，为何不能呢？而在我以前最最需要人听我的心事时，聆听着我的心心事的是Leon和 Alvin。
曾经有人说我和Leon很匹配，曾经有人说他喜欢我(没有这回事啦，虽然，他说我曾经被他列入榜）。我对他，就是没有感觉。从Kelvin, Leon就是从来不曾在榜首，纵然他的却是个很好的男生。真的很好…

而Alvin呢，当时，我和Alvin陷于同样的状况中。我们的“对象”都对他的“过去的”有些的不舍，而，我们同样都在“要与不要”的矛盾中徘徊。虽然，事到如今，他依然单身，而我j就“飞不了”了…虽然现在Alvin常对我说要公平竞争，而我也回他说“你尽管去吧”；然而，我们都知，那只是玩笑。那是有点爱玩的我和Alvin间的玩笑。从我认识他到现在，他还是这样…Alvin依然对“还不到手的她”有感觉…

还有某人，嗯，我不能说真的有和他分享很多私人心事。因为他并不是那种轻易把心事说出来的人。（而我在那个时候，吵架到还蛮严重，我却不让那里的人知…）可在某种程度上的“熟度”，在和他独处时，（我也不知为什么）他让我看了他的ex，还有他家人的相片。我们也坦然地讨论过自己的性格与理想…噢，是谁说男女不能一起睡的？我们睡在一起有不短的时间咯，嗯，有3-4个礼拜咯。非同床，但床连床…虽然有其他的女生，但睡他隔壁的是我。他，我，睡我另一个隔壁的女生（）- 我们3个晚上就来闹，白天就去奋斗…我因该让媚和他睡在一起的（虽然当初是他不要睡另各位置，而换来我旁边的位置的），或许闹闹与奋斗间，能擦出点火花呢？是可以的，是有可能的。我和他产生不出点“什么”来，是因为我已有所属，我执著 而他对我也有所保留。偶尔我会去“搞”他，他就答我说我已有男友 -.-"
噢，PAP carnival的 backdrop是我们俩的杰作叻…

我相信，男女间是有纯友谊的，如果双方无杂念。
如果真的有什么的，就让它顺其自然好咯…属于你的缘分，就是你的，跑不了的…
还好不是霸道的男生，不让我跟其他男生做朋友…不然，他完蛋咯…要不我跟他大吵，不让他和他的女生朋友来往（哦，他都是和女生们较要好，又有女生缘）；要不，我就跟佬跑…

晓彤 小小的 情史

今天，终于又做咯…久违了的“工作的感觉”…
因为某些原因，向学长拿了他的身份证号码… 840622-XX-XXXX…
840622， 这号码在我放工搭车回家时，不知怎么我又想起了… 我在那里算，噢，学长大我3年哦… 又不知怎么的，也许因为Takeo的中午一封forward短讯，我想起了他… Takeo... （我以为我的号码已在他的手机消失了，原来并没…）
我想起了他，想起了当时他是25岁。现在呢？噢,27了哦… 原来啊，事情已过了1++年了…

跟学长提起我的“旧blog", 忍不住，自己又读了些…

读到当年写的一首古诗，是当时的感受…（May 3rd, 2007）
当时，是“东窗事发”不久后的某早上。他拨电话来，说，他依然赖在床上，要拥我入睡……

心痒痒…
闲来无事，悢悢王。
妾惶恐，俺怎没鸳鸯样？
何谓无成鸳鸯兮？因王心有属。
俺还断不了，不像话…

天旭快复，王真要拥妾吗？

做人要坦荡荡，
天塌下来又怎样。
只怕你努力游向我心中央…
苟无此举，我心何来荡漾兮…
心荡漾，心花放，心里小鹿乱乱撞…

杨贵妃天生丽质难自弃。
我照样。
难弃，性，本好玩。

解释：（终于，今天要公开解释此诗的含义了。皇上是好胜的Takeo…）
我心痒痒。贤妻闲来没事做，我就想想您，皇上。
我恐慌，我们怎么不像情侣？我们为何无法成为情侣呢？皆因皇上心里有着别人… 可我们怎么还断不了，真不像话…
天快亮了。皇上，您真的想抱着我吗？
做人要坦荡荡。天塌下来又怎样。我只怕您依然很努力的要夺我心。如果并非您努力要攻进我心，我哪来得心荡漾。啊，我心荡漾，心花放，我心里的小鹿因你而在乱乱撞…
杨贵妃天生就漂亮，丑不了。而我也是。我本性好玩。此“好玩"弃不了啊…

当年的我，也许你说我蠢。当时我放弃了一个不错的帅哥（开始时，我蛮喜欢他的。放弃，是因为终于爱上我的ex了），而接受了Takeo。而在我的爱情观里，只要他心里有我，没有什么是不能/错的… 很自私吧… 当年，是他不理我先的。然而，我当时也知道，我会输的。他的女友，在他的心里占了很重要的大部分。也因此，我发现事实后，我开始从他那里收回我的心。至今，我依然衷心祝福他们能常常久久，希望他不再乱来…

噢，我其实不是个好女孩。
性格上，我也不像女生呀…你什么时候见过能够那么开放的女生，且不够温柔，不够依人，不够体贴兼不够细心。偶尔，会有点不顾形象。不大会做家务。会烘培却不大会下厨（下厨机会少嘛）… 一点都不感性（却性感嘛…人家讲的）。可人家也讲哦，我的言语中偶尔带点撒娇，可我不大察觉的……哈哈…

My Uni life..

Everything, starting from the chance of entering local uni is a coincident.. i dunno shud i take it as a lucky ....

To be honest, i nevr think of entering local Uni.. I give up on local uni since i was in upper 6, for i know that science subject isnt what i want.. But yet, still study bit bit la(reli bit bit if compare with the other.. half of the physisc stuffs i dun un d, hahaha. oh, i took physics for my form6). and erm, luckily, i got in2 uni for the subject i want, and to my desired uni with a 2nd batch of intake.

I never think of joining any activities in Uni, but to work part time.. I am a workaholic, i admit. I passed my days of half of the 1st year 1st sem in a enjoy mode... Den, there comes my admirer.. wahaha (seriously, my admirer)...

He is a senior of mine in the same pusat.. He then offer me to join Pesta Ang Pow UKM 14, as an exco under his bahagian.. Finally, i went interview, but i choose 4 another exco post, instead of that he hoped me to join, haha, cz that he hoped me to join can learn nt much (in my mindset).
Thanks 2 him.. He is a "Gui Ren" 2 me. Reli... Joining PAP has given me a lot of new chances 2 develop myself..
Because of joining PAP , i was "spotted" by seniors, to join Creative Lane of CCC as a penolong ketua.. I was suppposed 2 b d ketua, bt seniors worried that i might not handle thgs well as i took up a TE (TopExco) post in PAP15.

Creative Lane is a weak group, i can said.. Sth which make me "beh ki" is d attitude of the ketua.. Hw shud i said tht.. Dis doesnt means that he is no good.. Just that sumtimes he is too concentrate on hos schoolworks.. Last sem i was vry frustated bout this.. A lot problem occured, but he was more on his assgnments stuffs.. Den, even meeting, i went 4 him, thou tht tm i oso vry fussy bout my own studies and assignments stuffs. Creative Lane make me tired... But i know i coudnt ran away from that, i have the responsibility from the second i took up the post..

Back to the topic, den i continue to join PAP15 as internal TKP.. but due to sum changes in the TE board later(which some ppl has resign), i did do the part of External TKP (contacts seniors, act was because KP said, female is more persuasive o) sometimes, and Bendahari bit bit (bring pemasaran go MO)..
Days in PAP15 is happy for me, thou i dun deny that there are still some problems d..

Yesterday, Oops, dis morning went yumcha wit my partners last time. I was asked to join them..
Should i or shouldnt i.. D reason i shouldnt is my bad bad result, but i should for it seems that i suit for that..
That is not activities, but politic.. POLITIC, u noe.. .. ......................................

moody.. ..

gt bit moody... .. ..
He shudnt behave lik tht...
u dun wan it, bt u wan ppl accepted it... Mana Betul la.. .. .. ..

n y DHD off my ph juz lik tht juz nw..
Hai... .. ..

moody ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Poor Cathy

Exam.. ARGH.. Due 2 her very very etremely bad bad result in MidSem, she was struggling hard 4 her final, in dis semester..
HuHuHu..
She off her phone, Her dear DapPao 4 her each meal, She angry on herself 4 "ter"sleep 30 mon more den expected..

She have 5 papers in 6 days, wit 2 major ( d 2 Laozy-'i'est) on d 1st 2 days..
ARGHH..

She did nt well on 1st paper, n have etremely no mood 4 d nxt paper. Each n every formula cant goes in2 her head..
She was too sad.. Tears keep rolling.. Her tears juz kept rolling down, when her dear ask her how was her paper.. She said nothing, 4 tht she noes her tears will accompany her every words.. She choose 2 keep quite, She dun wan2 cry in a public place..
But, she did, at last.. n uncontrollable..
she skipped her dinner tht nite.. no appetite..

**But anyway, it was the best time 2 show how powerful is her dear 2 her.. She stopped afta his sayang..

She look far far more "CHAN" den b4.. Pimples burst out.. baggy dark eyes.. People were asking, "dear, how many days u have not have a sleep?" .. ... (*speechless**)

Dear Cathy, u beter study a bit bit everyday, 4 nxt sem..
Dear Cathy, u beter stop ur "xtra"-activities in nxt sem. (Erm, hopefully all ends b4 end of Feb).

Dear Dear Dear Cathy, thou u had transform in2 a Papillion, bt never 4gt ur original identity.. Where is d Little Worm ??!!
Little worm, b a BOOKWORM ba~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ (sumtimes la)